and end in....


I have found that when I was in my prior relationship for over eight years, in the beginning I stated..."Can we talk", in order to lessen the stress or simply to imply I want to speak truthfully and frankly in order to make sure I would be heard without him going into defense

      Not that this method was solely used for the purpose of trying to tame down an unnecessary blow up from occuring, cause that wasn't always the case.   But it was also a means to find out, if watching TV was a priority vs. talking.   

     In other words it was a feeler .   I am the type that prefers to know, then guess and allow my mind to do over self analizing.

        The clues I hinted gave me the feedback I needed to recieve in order to know whether to go on or not.    Many times it created neat conversations which turned out to be informative not just for me, but for both.  Or just simply fun.    When in a new relationship, isn't it amazing how polite we can be?   However we all look forward to the "comfort stage", since that is the most comfortable of all for two people who love each other should be.   I'm usually who I am from the onsite.  Easy going, very adaptable, not argumentative, very supportative and I got your back, cause that's me.   However, it would have been nice if the newness of the relationship wouldn't have been so much  slated to my efforts being more of the one giving plus being myself vs. a less attempt of the other being  real of themselves; then they pretended to be, you know?

       Regardless of whether it was one way or not, unfortuniately that isn't always discovered until much time is put into the relationship, since this relationship had a fifteen year friendship prior to Love creeping in.     So when the time of "comfort", routine should have set in; including giving my all to him, the blow that layed ahead was a heartbreak for me of the worst kind I'm sorry to state.    Foolishly he played me well; before he evolved into the wolf he really was,  all the while disquised in sheeps clothing.   Or perhaps it was denial on my part with hope in the name of Love to last my life time?  For sure I believed he'd turn back to that sweet loving guy he pretended to be, but not it wasn't the case. Which was followed several times with the words...

                   WE GOTTA TALK......NOW!    Before it became

                                            THE END!


             As I see it, I gave my all due to the fact I was in a Committed Relationship, whether married or not.    Enough time had been put in, on my part and his part to make efforts to not part.   Foolishly I thought more this way than my counter partner did, no doubt.   But I'm okay afterall.

             According to 1 Cor. 13 in the Bible,  "Love is not Proud....." and it's the scripture most used in Wedding ceramonies.  

 Love Never Fails, is speaking of Jesus.   That I know now for sure.

          My life's journey early on was in seeking that Love Soul Partner to connect with a male who sought out the same.    I may not have been destined to that reality because of my poor choices or the fact it wasn't to be for me.

         I'm greatful for the Faith that didn't totally give up on me,  regardless of several times being crushed in the heart continually.   Recovering from such heartaches are tough enough, add losing in what meant most to my being is amazing, yes I still breathe, walk and talk. 

         However,  I know now who my True Love really is and has been, as He patiently waited for me to realize it for myself,  plus never Abandoned me, and Loves me Unconditionally;  Just as I am, its amazing how True Love of the Best Kind really is once you believe and recieve it.

       The best part is I didn't die longing for a Love that never came as I continued seeking for Love in all the wrong places.   Oh My God,  to die  prior to discovering who My True Love would have been the worst for all eternity, thank God you Lord Broke Me from Myself;  By\ Faith I am Loved.    By Your Grace I recieve Unconditional Love of the Best Kind, with the Promise which won't ever be broken is truly a Wonderful gift from God Himself.   For me, sinful, repented and now forgiven to be with Jesus for Eternity makes me feel like a little girl again; filled with wonder, joy and purity.   A Love that isn't based on sexuality and worldly compromise.   

I will never have to say again,  "Can we talk?", or worst state, "We need to Talk",

      That's just so wonderful....and it's just not for me alone.  


Mama C   ;)

  Contented, and Surrendered  in Jesus Christ, who looks forward to our being together each and every day, and hour, plus eventually Eternity.  Neato!!!!



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Comments (32)

  1. honestycounts

    I can’t vouch for that, not a religious person but I can assure you you can’t change people…

    September 25, 2014
    1. Mom-Nest

      Hi honestycounts, thanks for your comment, I get what you say regarding you change people, that’s correct….but when two people are supposedly on the same course of Love and marriage, but then the other person decides to show their true intention was solely to “control me”, well then you are right and "changing me " didn’t work out for him, but a waste none the less for me. Long story, but you got the scope of what I meant. My course in life after giving my all to 3 guys, brought me to the reality since I was brought up as a Catholic religion and then I became Born Again, searching truth in God for my own. Mama C

      September 25, 2014
      1. honestycounts

        Hey, we all have our stories,our " wish this or wish I’d done that" reflection and looking back can be sad as well as painful….. If we only had known….

        September 25, 2014
        1. Mom-Nest

          Yep, but what’s nice is being able to walk away, hurt and disappointed for true, but never knowing why for me is worst. For me the search for a flesh male person to Love Me and I to Him is a search I need no longer have to struggle through. It’s good and I’m glad I never gave up, at least I tried. Better to try, ask, search and knock; then to be knocked down for good. The best comes only through Experiences that is how we get Wisdom and knowledge. Hang In There and don’t give up your dreams.

          September 25, 2014
          1. honestycounts

            And you, wish you luck I’m whatever you seek

            September 25, 2014
            1. Mom-Nest

              thanks, that’s sweet of you….as well the same for you too. Mama C

              September 25, 2014
      2. honestycounts

        Just a " hi"

        September 25, 2014
        1. Mom-Nest

          Double ditto. Anytime.

          September 25, 2014
  2. honestycounts

    you sound older if I may say without offending you

    September 25, 2014
    1. Mom-Nest

      Yes you may say that, older that is, but I don’t know if I sound older as much as it may be more experiences in living life in my expectations of delivering it all my way; and not always getting what I meant to be best for me. LOL… well yep I am older. How old would you say I sound to you? It’s not a secret, or a thing I’m ashamed about what so ever. I enjoy and look forward to greying completely, going all natural, and not having to be all made up, and wearing Spandex all day long. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m ok for my age, if you guest over 50 you are getting quite warm. Oh I liked looking good, especially when I was employed, it added to giving me confidence being I was in Sales, and customer’s assess me on First Impression. I’ve been naturally Blessed to not have to diet, and I was the character like the book called the Ugly Duckling, until when I turned 20 years old. Not pencil thin, but curvy with thick natural curly hair, which I had to tame down especially on Humid days in NYC. Now tell me how old did you think I sounded? I am one who have enjoyed all my years I aged because I gained knowledge, respect and never thought about the age segment there is today. No boo-tox, or face lift for me. I could use a tummy tuck, but Nah….woman no longer age appropriately nor do men. Oh wait a minute neither do most young teens any longer for that matter. Yep I sound just like my mom did….Ouch! LOL….

      September 25, 2014
      1. honestycounts

        I am retired. Michigan,along Lake Erie. Although I was born and raised in

        September 25, 2014
    2. Mom-Nest

      OK honestycounts, I am not certain of your age or whereabouts you are, so would you consider giving me a hint? Also wondering gender status, unless you feel offended it’s not a biggy either way, just wondering. The worst anyone could ever say when I ask a question is NO, and I never take it personally. I was in sales afterall for a very long time and so there you have it. Do keep on. Thanks, Mama C

      September 25, 2014
      1. honestycounts

        September 26, 2014
  3. Mom-Nest

    Neato, Michigan along Lake Erie. OOOO that get’s mighty cold in the winter…berrrr. LOL. I’m born and raised in Bronx, New York, and was the only one who ventured West when I was in my early 20’s. I went to Arizona, cause the Sun Shines a lot, no humid summer in comparison to NYC, and winters are so enjoyable I ended up living in the Phoenix area for eight years, I was given a job opportunity to relocate to Northern Calif., San Jose, Oakland and San Francisco and was their for over thirty five years. I just relocated back to Arizona as I so wanted to retire here anyway, but I’m in a higher elevation from Phx, where it doesn’t get over 100 like and I get all four seasons, but not freezing weather or tons of snow. Plus it’s affordable compared to the heavy taxes in Calif. as in NYC. The pace is calmer and frankly I’ve never been much for big cities, I knew this since I was five years old. I have one son, and the rest is pretty much posted here and there much like a diary.
    Well, it’s been sweet, I shall be back, and do feel free to keep in contact, or comment, thanks so much. It’s a pleasure to meet you and have a new friend to boot. C

    September 26, 2014
  4. anthonynguyen

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    October 02, 2015